Feeding My Brain

My addiction feeds off negativity.  It feeds off my own negativity, your negativity, the negativity prevalent in the world, any type of negativity will do.  One of my jobs as a recovering addict is to find a way to keep enough positives going in my mind and life to counteract the negativity.  Let me tell you, it is not an easy job!

I’ve begun doing a prayer/meditation in the morning to make sure I start my day with a positive frame of mind.  I realize that often I get up, smoke, drink coffee, get on the computer and take no time to connect with my higher powers, including my higher self.

I’ve begun being more attentive to what I read and watch on television.  If I feed myself negativity all day, negativity is what I’m going to get.

I got a great book from the library called “Cries of the Spirit, A Celebration of Women’s Spirituality.”  It’s full of poems and short essays that feed my brain and my spirit in a way that I realize I need on a daily basis.  Here’s one of my favorites:

October (excerpt)  Audre Lorde

Seboulisa, mother of power

keeper of birds

fat and beautiful

give me the strenth of your eyes

ro remember

what I have learned

help me to attend with passion

these tasks at hand for doing.

 

Carry my heart to some shore

that my feet will not shatter

do not let me pass away

before I have a name

for this tree

under which I am lying.

Do not let me die

still

needing to be stranger.

 

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