We’re living in a time of revolution. Nothing is more reflective of this time than Venus’ transit of the Sun today. The goddess of beauty and love will infuse the male energy of the Sun with the grace necessary to bring forth manifestation of our deepest desires.
Venus if a very important planet and goddess in my life. As a first-house 5-planet Scorpio, Venus on my ascendent is the saving grace of what has otherwise been a rather difficult chart to live out. She’s having a long sit-down with my 5th house Chiron right now and because I’m sober, I’m able to work with this energy in a powerful and positive way.
Chiron instructs that wherever lie our deepest wounds, there also lies our salvation. Addiction is the defining issue of my life. I have absolutely no business being alive today; no business being sober; no business being happy and excited about sobriety.
My time sober since my last drink, 81 days, is not indicative of all that I’ve learned in the past 18 years of strivng for a lasting sobriety, getting sober and then relapsing again, learning more, trying something else. It’s not indicative of the 6 years of sobriety I had from 1988-1994 – good sober years but in a program not suitable for me, a program I had no desire to return to, a program that left me with no life raft when my addiction was reawakened.
I have this crazy dream. I have this dream that when an addict desires sobriety, there is a meeting in every city of a program suitable for that particular addict. There is a Lifering meeting for those who have no need of steps or a higher power. There is a 16-step meeting for those like me, who need to build a healthy ego and empower themselves; there is a spiral step meeting for pagans and other nature-based spiritualists. There are meetings I can’t begin to imagine now because they haven’t been created yet.
If there’s one thing in the entire world I’m absolutely sure of it’s the creative genius of most addicts. It’s time for this genius to be unleased, to create new forms, new programs, new meetings. It’s time for us to follow the lead of Bill Wilson, Charlotte Kasl, Martin Nicolaus, and Renee Bledsoe and get interested in our own recoveries. It’s time to be unflinchingly honest about what does and does not work for us individually, for us to know what we know, see what we see, and feel what we feel.
It’s time for us to be committed to each other rather than to a particular form.
I’m willing now to back up my crazy dream with commitment. By this day next year, not only will I have one year and 81 day’s continuously clean and sober, there will be a Lifering and a 16-step empowerment meeting in my town. I’d also love to see an Addiction Alchemy model available here. With Venus as my grace, guide and witness, so let it be written, so let it be done.